I’m Fat…

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Ive told myself that a time or two in regards to the picture above..

I purposely bought some clothes, hoping that Id get down to where I feel comfy in being – weight wise. Im not there – YET!

I almost cried today while trying on some clothes because point blank….

IM FAT AND IM NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT!

Im ALL for self empowerment and the empowerment of others but I also don’t like sugar coating anything either. I completely understand there are issues (personal and medical) that can cause weight gain and also make it difficult to lose weight as I suffer from hypothyroidism. I also know that not exercising, not drinking water and eating JUNK can AND will contribute to one being overweight.

When I met my now husband, I wore “sexy” things for him. I was always presentable as well, even before I met him. When you start packing on the weight, it changes you. Now I don’t feel comfortable at all wearing those ‘sexy” things. Im always in an old t-shirt and shorts. I became THAT wife and woman. I have to do better. I want to do better but right now I don’t have the motivation – at.all. Mainly because Im idle and stuck at home until we get a second car. I know I can work out at home but Im one of those that needs the structure of being in a gym, which is hard to get to at the moment.

Im not going to give up. I know I have it in me to get to where I want to be because Im honest with myself in regards to being fat. I know how I feel when I don’t have the weight packed on me. Not just physically but emotionally as well. I wrote a post in June in regards to what Im writing about now, so it’s pretty obvious that it’s something that’s bothering me: Fitness

Yes, I know all about “fat shaming” which is not what my post is about. If anyone takes offense to what I wrote, then oh well because that’s not my intent

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