So tomorrow I get this weight loss journey underway. I’m going to go in with positive thoughts. I know that it is going to take discipline to be successful with this. My body and health will thank me for doing so.
I’ve created a plan, which I’m hoping is sufficient. Especially since it’s been a hot minute since I’ve eaten right and exercised. I know that getting a decent night sleep will be beneficial as well. Again, discipline is going to come into bed for me ti unplug from the electronics by 10 p.m. and hopefully be sound asleep by 11 p.m.
Last week I had my first appointment with at a weight management clinic. I can tell you it was very eye opening having the doctor go over my results. I learned a lot about my body’s fat segmentation during the appointment. I will expand on that later in another post; I’m so sleepy right now.
I received my prescription for Phentermine today which I will start taking Monday. I’m just hoping that the side effects listed isn’t too bad. I do know that the medication is not long term and that I still have to put in the work. I’m going to take plenty of before and after pictures and blog about my weight loss journey, which I pray will be successful. This is the heaviest that I have ever been and considering I’m pre-diabetic and pre-hypertensive, I know that I need to start taking better care of myself.
When I worked out with a personal trainer awhile back, I wanted to shoot for around 140 but he suggested 180. I have been down to 140 and I just didn’t look right. People actually thought I was doing crack.
So as of today, the ticker below is where I stand. I have about 66 pounds to lose. That shouldn’t be too hard, right? I’m going to stay positive about this.
Chopping my hair off has been far less traumatic than watching my hair come out in clumps every.single.day. There’s not much I can do, style wise, but I’m keeping my eye on the bigger picture; achieving healthy hair while embracing my natural hair/curls.
I wasnt sure if I had watched this series before so when I started watching it last night, I realized I had. And then I remembered why I stopped watching it during Episode 1 of Season 1. It involved a scene with the Dothraki warlord, Khal Drogo. I wont spoil it.
Since I’m on a break from electronics and such, I started watching it again (last night) and I’m pleasantly surprised that I love this series. So I’ll be binge watching to catch up; considering I’m only on Season 1; Episode 4 and it’s currently in Season 7.
One of my favorite quotes (or whatever ya want to call it), quoted by Tyrion Lannister which is played by Peter Dinklage : “Never forget what you are, the rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor and it can never be used to hurt you.”
You’d have to watch to know why it was said but it was deep considering the context in why it was said.
Today was a pretty productive day for me. First I deactivated my Facebook account. I then forced myself to get up early so that I could knock out my household chores. I purged items in my closet to give to Goodwill. I organized my file cabinet and just a whole bunch of other stuff I knocked out today that I felt needed to be done. I hate clutter or not being organized.
I’ve taken a leave of absence from school; just a week. My thoughts are all over the place at the moment. At times I don’t think it has fully sunk in that my sister has died. She has died. No matter how much I say that to myself, it’s so hard to grasp. On top of that, family members on my hubsters side of the family are dealing with medical issues. I’m just so weary of dealing with all of this. Just when I’ve started to heal from one grief, another one happens.
I was going to a Yoga class this evening until I realized it’s hot yoga. I need a beginners, beginner class.
I thought I was going to be highly upset about doing the big chop today once the realization set in that I cut my hair this short. I’m just happy that I don’t have to see clumps of my hair coming out. Plus, my natural curls are POPPIN’. I will make another blog post with regard to an update
After having my hysterectomy, it seemed as though my hair started coming out more and more. I’m not sure if the hair loss was/is due to hormones (I’m on HRT’S), having hypothyroidism, relaxing and/or dying my hair. Whatever the case may be, there were days when I was almost in tears due to the amount of hair I was losing.
That led me to start cutting my hair recently. Interesting enough, it’s been awhile since I’ve relaxed my hair, and I’ve noticed that the grey hair hasn’t come back as quickly as it normally does. Also since cutting the relaxed hair, my hair hasn’t been breaking off as much. I’m thinking it’s a combination of my hair being relaxed and medical issues that resulted in my hair being a hot ass mess.
When my hair is in its natural state, I think it’s really pretty and I love seeing my curl pattern. However, my curl pattern and texture is different in certain areas and it’s thick; even with all the hair loss. Those “issues” is what leads to my becoming frustrated, which in turn leads me to relaxing my hair. I know at this point, it’ll just take discipline and patience.
Yesterday I received news that my sister had passed. I’m still attempting to wrap my head around her dying.
Tony is 12 years older than I am and we pretty much grew up together. She had some disabilities due to being hit by a car when she was young. However, she was smart as all get out, funny, and didn’t hesitate to tell you off either. We definitely had our share of fights because I didn’t like being told what to do. I still have the scar of her slamming my finger in the door. Of course we always made up because that’s what you do as sisters.
I think we owe not having black knees because of her (lol). She didn’t play about us not taking baths. Even now when I take my showers, I make sure to scrub my knees. She didn’t play when it came to her money. If you weren’t contributing to the household, financially, you got an ear full from her about using too much water, washing your clothes, etc. If you messed up, you cleaned up, which is something we all owe to our momma. I don’t think there was anyone that didn’t love her (my sister) though.
She was told she would never have children but went on to have 3. Two of her 3 children were killed in a devastating fire at our momma’s house and Tony was never the same after that.
One would think living in an apartment that there’s not much decorating you can do. I beg to differ *smiling*. I really don’t have a particular style; my main goals are functionality and comfortable. At times I do miss having a house but then I think about all the cleaning I used to do and I’m like “nah, I’m good!”. At least for now anyway.
I’m sooo happy that I went with a sectional for our living room. It’s super comfortable. The top of the coffee table lifts up and there’s storage underneath as well. I do need a better rug than the one that was previously there. The mirror above sectional will be replaced with a oversize wall clock with pictures on both sides.
I need to see if there are any pictures available of my uterus. I asked my gyn what it looked like due to the Fibroids and she said “Imagine what Mickey Mouse looks like?!? That would be what your uterus looked like. The hubster was able to see it and….well yeah *sad face*. The crazy thing about the surgery is that my gyn wasnt able to locate my right ovary, so we have no idea if it dissolved or what.
Had to have post op appt. today due to a slight issue. Good news – somewhat! I’ve lost almost 20lbs. Woot! Woot! Don’t have much of an appetite at all but need to be careful. Bad news: Had to take bottom staples out due to drainage AND looks like the lower half is trying to split open. Didn’t seem to close. Sooo, we wait and see and I’m to keep as dry as possible. Worse case scenario is having to do wound care. Been there! Done that! Not trying to do again – EVER! No HRT. Going a different route to deal with my body being “off”. Damn you crying spells and insomnia *Throws up fist* I go in Wed. to remove the upper half of staples. *1 week and 2 days post op.*
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