I’ve always been someone that said when I’d do something, I did it. Ya know, the kind of person you could depend on; whether it was doing something for myself or others. Over the years, I’ve sort of lost myself. I’m hoping to find her before the year is out so I can start anew for the new year.
Some things I want to get back into doing and some things that need to be done…
PRIORITY: Church. I need church. Whether it’s going to a Wednesday service or Sunday service. I’m not an overly religious person but without God as front and center in my life, life for me will always be upside down. I know that life is full of ups and downs but when you have more downs than ups, something has to change.
Volunteering in some type of capacity
Staying focused on college
Get together with other couples at least once a month; whether it’s hosting a movie night at our home or meeting up somewhere else for dinner, movies and/or drinks.
Today was a pretty productive day for me. First I deactivated my Facebook account. I then forced myself to get up early so that I could knock out my household chores. I purged items in my closet to give to Goodwill. I organized my file cabinet and just a whole bunch of other stuff I knocked out today that I felt needed to be done. I hate clutter or not being organized.
I’ve taken a leave of absence from school; just a week. My thoughts are all over the place at the moment. At times I don’t think it has fully sunk in that my sister has died. She has died. No matter how much I say that to myself, it’s so hard to grasp. On top of that, family members on my hubsters side of the family are dealing with medical issues. I’m just so weary of dealing with all of this. Just when I’ve started to heal from one grief, another one happens.
I was going to a Yoga class this evening until I realized it’s hot yoga. I need a beginners, beginner class.
I thought I was going to be highly upset about doing the big chop today once the realization set in that I cut my hair this short. I’m just happy that I don’t have to see clumps of my hair coming out. Plus, my natural curls are POPPIN’. I will make another blog post with regard to an update
I absolutely LOVE apartment living. We are centrally located to just about everything and the amenities here suit us just well. At this point in time in our lives, and especially in mine, I have no desire to buy a home or even live in a house. Been there! Done that!
Yes, my home is usually uncluttered and clean; unless I’m purging or rearranging. This is something that I learned from my mother. Even when my (bonus)children lived with us full time, they had their own space which they had to keep clean or stuff went to the trash. Considering we don’t have as much space now, the kids play in their room which they have to clean up before going back to their moms house. Age by Age Chore Chart
I did a bit of a change to our home which was way out the norm for me. I’ve always been into richer tones like reds and browns. I went with hues of blue for this makeover. I still have a few things I’d like to buy/add but in all due time. For now, I’m pretty happy with what I’ve done so far. Continue reading “Apartment Living; Our Home”→
I’m currently doing a class assignment and came across the movie below (link) while doing some research. I found it on Netflix and just added it to my list. I cant wait to see it as it’s the type of movie that I enjoy watching.
I’m currently taking a psychology class as part of my overall classes in college. It’s been pretty intense with regard as to how I see myself and life in general. Last week, I had to ask five people questions and one of them was: “What makes you happy?”.
I’ve been thinking long and hard about what my answer(s) would be. I also realized that I had to be brutally honest with myself about those answers. This year I will be forty-eight years old; 4-8. Two years shy of fifty (50). Hell I didn’t think I’d make it pass my teens with all that I was going through and yet here I am…
I’m not scared of getting “old”. What scares me is not living life the way I know it’s meant to be lived;which also includes not living up to my full potential. While talking about fears, let me share a few. I have a terrible fear of drowning. When I was younger, a relative decided he would teach me to swim by throwing me out in the middle of deep water. I almost drowned that day. Considering I’d love to scuba dive, someone suggested I take swimming lessons. Feeling lonely is another fear. I’m not scared of being alone but I know what it’s like to feel lonely and I don’t ever want to experience that again.
It’s like the saying goes “write it down and then make it happen.” I’m more of a visual person, so I’ll print this out and hang up near my computer and on the fridge which will hopefully keep me on track.
My (personal) goals for 2017….
Purchase a second car for the hubster, so that I can use the van.
Start a meet-up group. I had quite a few members on my previous group but couldn’t keep it up due to our car situation.
Apply for a part time job related to what I’m in college for. I recently learned that I could work as a “sitter” for kids at a behavioral center.
Write and blog more (I so miss writing outside of college)
Start exercising/becoming active (applies to the hubster too)
The hubster and I will be going on vacation soon and I cannot wait to travel with him.
It’s been a bumpy road for us as we haven’t been on the same page in a long time. I’ve been holding onto a lot of anger and hurt and not only has it been detrimental to our marriage but my health (in all areas) as well. I will speak (write) on this is another blog post.
This post is about our vacation…
We are booked on a cruise (his 2nd and my 3rd cruise) and we’ll be travelling to Cozumel and Yucatan (Progresso). Unlike our last cruise, I booked excursions for this trip. I’m really excited about seeing the ruins, which is something that I’ve always wanted to do. It’s not the bigger ruins (too long of a drive) but something is better than nothing. We’ll be touring Dzibilchaltún ruins.
In Cozumel, we’ll be sipping on fruity drinks while relaxing at Isla Passion. Just praying that no bad weather forces us to miss either ports. Either way, we’ll make the most of our cruise. I also upgraded us to a balcony, so it’ll be nice, weather permitted, to sit out there and just take it all in.
School is becoming stressful but I’m keeping my eyes on the prize.
My mind is so cluttered right now. I think I may need Yoga in my life like for real. Usually when I’m feeling this way it’s because I’m not as close with God as I should be.
A trip the hubster and I had planned for our 4 year wedding anniversary, had to be cancelled. Getting my degree is one of the top priorities for me at the moment. At least he’s had some much needed time off from work. We haven’t killed (figure of speech) each other, so that says a lot. Ha!
Before heading out to dinner to celebrate our 4 year wedding anniversary. I always notice just how short I am when I stand next to him.
I’m really loving our apartment and the complex. Now if they’d fix the damn treadmills that are broken, I’d be even happier. We’ve yet to try out the pool but maybe this weekend cause it’s hot than a mutha here in Florida! The tenants above us though. I swear they have heavy feet cause damn…
I’ve gained 20 lbs in 3 months. I want some answers when I see my doctor on the 14th. I also have some new symptoms that have popped up. One being my need to constantly tinkle.
This year I’ll turn 47 years old. I count my blessings often that I’m still living and breathing because when I look back on my life…
I’m getting back into meal prepping. I HATE to cook and found this site that wont make it so bad to do so. My Body. My Kitchen
I’ve found that I cuss way more than I should since I started college. I’m still a f*cking lady though…LOL! That comedian, Adele Givens, came to mind for some reason as I started typing.
I miss my mom so very much. I still get hit with the reality (even though it’s been almost 3 years since her death) at times that she is no longer here and it’s hard to wrap my head around that.
I took the time today to respond to emails. I was able to figure out some things for my meet-up next month which I’m super excited and nervous about. My plan, later down the line, is to also include those who have young daughters and/or nieces. I really want these meet-ups to be one of empowerment/encouragement not only for the adults, but the children as well. I didn’t have a mother-daughter relationship (growing up) with my mom in the sense of us sitting down to have (girl) talks or going out for mommy-daughter time. That didn’t happen until I was much, much older.
I had to run to Wal-Mart last night and bought a super comfy skirt and shirt which I will pair with a jacket, since the shirt is basically a tank top. I absolutely love pearl necklaces and as a Southurn girl, you can never have too many. I found a super cute set – earrings and necklace, last night. Tomorrow, I will attempt to do my makeup and hair. I may need to go watch a view videos on Youtube so I don’t end up looking like a clown. Ha! I’m really excited to start dressing up as an adult. LOL!!
Now I sit here, wishing that the hubster was home. Even though we’re struggling and pretty much do our own thing when he is here, I like having him close by. I ordered some pizza, which I’m eating and I’m about to put some papers together to hand out at the meet-up.
I’ve been doing some major research and planning so that I’m not thrown for too much of a loop. I have to be organized in some way and having a binder helps. Especially since I will be utilizing public transportation which will limit the amount I carry in my backpack. I’m sure the first few weeks days (of my walking from the bus stop to the office) will be rough and tough cause I haven’t exercised in well over a month….*sigh*
Aside from all things related to my organization, I also wanted to start having a meet-up, maybe once a month that would include women that I personally know that have been through it – emotionally, spiritually, physically, etc. Maybe if this takes off, it will go beyond this initial stage with more women joining in. That would be totally awesome. I know it can be difficult when you have a bunch of women together but I’m hoping to form a sisterhood that focuses on empowering and encouraging each other. There will be no tolerance for drama and gossip. If disagreements arise, I would hope that we’re all mature enough to handle them as an adult and remember that not everyone will always agree. I’m all for constructive criticism but blatant disrespect, won’t be tolerated either.
Luckily my office has a really nice, large meeting room and I’ve contacted the person that I need to, to set aside a date for next month to hold my 1st meet-up. Only those who receive an invite will be allowed to come as I want this to be a safe place to meet-up as well.
Things are starting to fall into place and I’m pretty happy about that….
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Cover of My Binder
Inside of binder *I miss my mom so very much* Much of what I do is because of her.
I’ve loved coloring since I was little. I thought this would be a great idea for some of the meetups *Sisterlyhood In The Making*
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