Not So Random Thoughts!

Excited about the hubster and I taking a road trip soon! The planning/researching has been so exciting to me.

Craving a Big-Mac from McDonalds. #dontjudgeme

Needing to not stress about the current class that I’m taking.

Thankful for seeing another day so I can be thankful for all that I have.

Wanting to stop feeling so fatigued. Even with the medication I’m on for my thyroid issue, the fatigue is real.

Loving where I’m at with my life at the moment. I am finding a deeper profound for life and happiness. My psychology courses have totally helped me in many ways.

Missing my mom every.single.day. Her being gone still hits me like a ton of bricks. Nothing could have prepared me for such a devastating loss.

Wearing a boho shirt as a dress; short gurl problems.

Thinking about the places I’d like to travel to as a couple and family.

Looking forward to date night tonight, at home, with the hubster

Feeling nothing but happiness at the moment.

Hoping that the next 20+ years of my life will be freaking amazing.

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I’m Learning….

I haven’t felt this good about life in a long time but I’m finding myself there! I have so much to (write) blog about.

There’s a lot that I will be (writing) blogging about here soon.

I think I just needed that “something” to get me back to this point of wanting to write so that I cant get back into blogging.

I’m excited!!!

2017 into 2018; Goals

I’ve always been someone that said when I’d do something, I did it. Ya know, the kind of person you could depend on; whether it was doing something for myself or others. Over the years, I’ve sort of lost myself. I’m hoping to find her before the year is out so I can start anew for the new year.

Some things I want to get back into doing and some things that need to be done…

PRIORITY: Church. I need church. Whether it’s going to a Wednesday service or Sunday service. I’m not an overly religious person but without God as front and center in my life, life for me will always be upside down. I know that life is full of ups and downs but when you have more downs than ups, something has to change.

Volunteering in some type of capacity

Staying focused on college

Get together with other couples at least once a month; whether it’s hosting a movie night at our home or meeting up somewhere else for dinner, movies and/or drinks.

Blogging, writing and reading more

Limit my time on social media

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Not So Random Thoughts

Today was a pretty productive day for me. First I deactivated my Facebook account. I then forced myself to get up early so that I could knock out my household chores. I purged items in my closet to give to Goodwill. I organized my file cabinet and just a whole bunch of other stuff I knocked out today that I felt needed to be done. I hate clutter or not being organized.

I’ve taken a leave of absence from school; just a week. My thoughts are all over the place at the moment. At times I don’t think it has fully sunk in that my sister has died. She has died. No matter how much I say that to myself, it’s so hard to grasp. On top of that, family members on my hubsters side of the family are dealing with medical issues. I’m just so weary of dealing with all of this. Just when I’ve started to heal from one grief, another one happens.

I was going to a Yoga class this evening until I realized it’s hot yoga. I need a beginners, beginner class.

I thought I was going to be highly upset about doing the big chop today once the realization set in that I cut my hair this short. I’m just happy that I don’t have to see clumps of my hair coming out. Plus, my natural curls are POPPIN’. I will make another blog post with regard to an update

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Apartment Living; Our Home

I absolutely LOVE apartment living.  We are centrally located to just about everything and the amenities here suit us just well. At this point in time in our lives, and especially in mine,  I have no desire to buy a home or even live in a house. Been there! Done that!

Yes, my home is usually uncluttered and clean; unless I’m purging or rearranging.  This is something that I learned from my mother.  Even when my (bonus)children lived with us full time, they had their own space which they had to keep clean or stuff went to the trash. Considering we don’t have as much space now, the kids play in their room which they have to clean up before going back to their moms house. Age by Age Chore Chart

I did a bit of a change to our home which was way out the norm for me. I’ve always been into richer tones like reds and browns. I went with hues of blue for this makeover. I still have a few things I’d like to buy/add but in all due time. For now, I’m pretty happy with what I’ve done so far. Continue reading “Apartment Living; Our Home”

Getting Older

 

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I’m currently taking a psychology class as part of my overall classes in college. It’s been pretty intense with regard as to how I see myself and life in general. Last week, I had to ask five people questions and one of them was: “What makes you happy?”.

I’ve been thinking long and hard about what my answer(s) would be. I also realized that I had to be brutally honest with myself about those answers. This year I will be forty-eight years old; 4-8. Two years shy of fifty (50). Hell I didn’t think I’d make it pass my teens with all that I was going through and yet here I am…

I’m not scared of getting “old”. What scares me is not living life the way I know it’s meant to be lived;which also includes not living up to my full potential. While talking about fears, let me share a few. I have a terrible fear of drowning.  When I was younger, a relative decided he would teach me to swim by throwing me out in the middle of deep water. I almost drowned that day. Considering I’d love to scuba dive, someone suggested I take swimming lessons. Feeling lonely is another fear. I’m not scared of being alone but I know what it’s like to feel lonely and I don’t ever want to experience that again.

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2017 Goals

It’s like the saying goes “write it down and then make it happen.” I’m more of a visual person, so I’ll print this out and hang up near my computer and on the fridge which will hopefully keep me on track.

My (personal) goals for 2017….

Purchase a second car for the hubster, so that I can use the van.

Start a meet-up group. I had quite a few members on my previous group but couldn’t keep it up due to our car situation.

Apply for a part time job related to what I’m in college for. I recently learned that I could work as a “sitter” for kids at a behavioral center.

Write and blog more (I so miss writing outside of college)

Start exercising/becoming active (applies to the hubster too)

Eat healthier (applies to the hubster too)

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Vacation

 

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The hubster and I will be going on vacation soon and I cannot wait to travel with him.

It’s been a bumpy road for us as we haven’t been on the same page in a long time. I’ve been holding onto a lot of anger and hurt and not only has it been detrimental to our marriage but my health (in all areas) as well. I will speak (write) on this is another blog post.

This post is about our vacation…

We are booked on a cruise (his 2nd and my 3rd cruise) and we’ll be travelling to Cozumel and Yucatan (Progresso).  Unlike our last cruise, I booked excursions for this trip. I’m really excited about seeing the ruins, which is something that I’ve always wanted to do. It’s not the bigger ruins (too long of a drive) but something is better than nothing. We’ll be touring  Dzibilchaltún ruins.

In Cozumel, we’ll be sipping on fruity drinks while relaxing at Isla Passion. Just praying that no bad weather forces us to miss either ports. Either way, we’ll make the most of our cruise. I also upgraded us to a balcony, so it’ll be nice, weather permitted, to sit out there and just take it all in.

Not So Randomness!

School is becoming stressful but I’m keeping my eyes on the prize.

My mind is so cluttered right now.  I think I may need Yoga in my life like for real.  Usually when I’m feeling this way it’s because I’m not as close with God as I should be.

A trip the hubster and I had planned for our 4 year wedding anniversary, had to be cancelled. Getting my degree is one of the top priorities for me at the moment. At least he’s had some much needed time off from work. We haven’t killed (figure of speech) each other, so that says a lot. Ha!

Before heading out to dinner to celebrate our 4 year wedding anniversary. I always notice just how short I am when I stand next to him.

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I’m really loving our apartment and the complex. Now if they’d fix the damn treadmills that are broken, I’d be even happier. We’ve yet to try out the pool but maybe this weekend cause it’s hot than a mutha here in Florida!  The tenants above us though. I swear they have heavy feet cause damn…

I’ve gained 20 lbs in 3 months. I want some answers when I see my doctor on the 14th. I also have some new symptoms that have popped up. One being my need to constantly tinkle.

This year I’ll turn 47 years old. I count my blessings often that I’m still living and breathing because when I look back on my life…

I’m getting back into meal prepping. I HATE to cook and found this site that wont make it so bad to do so. My Body. My Kitchen

I’ve found that I cuss way more than I should since I started college. I’m still a f*cking lady though…LOL! That comedian, Adele Givens, came to mind for some reason as I started typing.

I miss my mom so very much. I still get hit with the reality (even though it’s been almost 3 years since her death) at times that she is no longer here and it’s hard to wrap my head around that.

My vision board

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