Not So Randomness

My Cowboys weren’t in the Superbowl, and until they are. Im on strike. However, I will come to your house for the company, food and liquor though…LOL! *Yeah I know but hey, Im a diehard fan*

How is it possible to lose 3lbs in ONE day? I have found that water and I can be friends.

NO MORE SODAS! NO MORE SODAS! That’s what I keep saying to myself

Im in desperate need of a pedi and mani. The bottom of my feet are so jacked up, that youd think the cat has scratched my legs…Ok, theyre not that bad but bad enough that I shouldn’t be wearing shoes that exposes em…LOL!

If The Color Run is not in your area or close by – Check out – The Color Vibe

I pray Bobbi Kristina pulls through. She really hasn’t been “right” since her mom died. Something I know all too well. My mom died in 2013 and I still struggle with her death. It’s still so hard to believe she is gone. It all happened so fast as well. Found out she had cancer in August I believe and she passed that October.

I love when people underestimate me.

I sooo want to go back to Italy. The first time I was there, I was with an a**hole, so that doesn’t count. Im watching House Hunters, so that’s why I mention it…LOL! It’s a beautiful country. Slow paced, like us Southerners. Loved the food, the wine, the people…

Ive been carrying an enormous amount of weight on my shoulders the past few days. Ive had to pray long and hard about it. Im a fixer but coming to understand that not everything is meant for me to fix.

Im so focusing on being happy. I have not come as far as I have – to not be.

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HAPPY TUESDAY YALL!

No Title *A Poem A Wrote*

Im definitely not an expert at writing poetry but I try *smiling*

Battered, torn and bruised

My past I cant escape

But I refuse to let my abusers – fill my heart with hate.


They tried to keep me down

But Im much stronger than they thought

Cause here I still stand – a great battle I have fought.


My trials and tribulations have been placed in His hands

To have made it this far in life,

I know there’s nothing I cant withstand.

The Movie – Silenced *Spoiler*

This has been one of the most disturbing movies Ive ever seen. I was able to watch it on Netflix

Movie Info

Based on the book “Dogani” — which elicited outrage across South Korea, Silenced is the heart-wrenching true story of horrific child abuse and the shocking human rights issues that continue to plague activists today. A powerful and moving tribute to great strength and heroic conviction…a story of one man — and one people’s — unwavering hope for change.

This is a WORLDWIDE problem. It’s sickening that there are people in this world who prey upon people as is but to do so to children…

Suicide Awareness

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http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

I’m a survivor. The cut to the right is of my(failed) attempt to end my life. Several times before that, it was via pills. I don’t know why I was allowed to live while so many others have died. I don’t judge as I know what it is like to feel helpless and hopeless. Hugs to those of you who are struggling with depression. Rest In Paradise to those who no longer are ❤

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I Asked God…

Let me start off by writing that I am not an overly religious person. In fact, Im more spiritual than I am religious. I’m not here to debate how and why I feel the way that I do. I know what works for me.

My only wish (goal) is to maybe help and inspire others who are and/or have gone through situations that makes you say – what the hell?!?

I don’t have all the answers. I don’t know why seemingly good people are faced with some of the most tragic things no-one should ever have to endure. I don’t know why seemingly bad people “have it all”. I don’t question why anyone attempts suicide. Ive been there (many times) so I know better than to judge.

Life is Life.

I try to be as positive as I can be because I know that one day, I will never have to endure the hurts and pains any longer cause Lord willing, I will be with my Heavenly Father.

So on that note…

Continue reading “I Asked God…”

I’m a SURVIVOR!

Im part of this awesome group of women and we share a common bond. We’re survivors! We have a bridge which allows those to go down and tag it. The organizer of the group put something together and the end result was FABULOUS.

Initially I was going to be unable to attend due to us having only one car. When my husband finally came home, we headed out to get something to eat and were going to go for a walk. I wanted to see how the bridge turned out but to my surprise, the organizer was still there as well as a few other women. What’s funny is – the walk my husband and I were going to take, was very spontaneous as I was out in my bedroom slippers. I feel so blessed to have been a part of it. My husband even joined in to help paint.

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