Not off to the best start butI’m going to get there. My problem? Not watching what I eat on the weekends. I start out the week getting down to about 177 and find myself over 180 after eating out over the weekend. The only way to deal with this is….discipline.
Even when ordering food that’s “healthy” it ends up not being when I look at the calories. My plan is to start ordering off the kids menu and making sure I’m eating throughout the day. Of course I want to have a healthy relationship with food and I want to enjoy going out. However, when it’s all said and done, I end up feeling miserable; especially when I consume gluten.
Even if I do eat something labeled “gluten-free” there’s a disclaimer, usually, stating that the food may be in contact with gluten. Unless you are sensitive to gluten and dairy, you will never understand how badly those things affect those that are senstive to them. I’am sensitive to them both. As I type this, I should probably get tested for celiac. Gluten sensitivity.
My initial goal weight was 180 but I’ve changed it to around 170 to give myself some wiggle room. I havent been as focused on getting down to 170 over the past month or so. Mainly due to my final class which had me rethinking my whole life as a student. Pissed off was an understatement. I know 140 is the “recommended” weight for my height, but 140 does not look good on me.
Now let’s talk about Thanksgiving! Whew lawd the struggle was real. When you can’t cook and eat some real home cooking….let’s just say I went from 178.8 to 182.4 (over a 2 day period) LOL! I’m currently at 180.4. For the most part, my weight has been between 177 – 180ish; which is still within my goal weight.
I won’t make the mistake I did for Thanksgiving but so not beating myself up about it. I didnt eat, like I normally do, so I could pig out for dinner. Later that night, I ended up being miserable as hell from over-eating. I will do better for Christmas dinner though.
I initially started this journey back in 2017. I was tired of being sick and tired + being told I was going to possibly go on medication for high blood pressure and being pre-diabetic was enough to take action.
I decided to go to a weight management clinic (August 2017), which our insurance pays for – the co-payment. I weighed in at 246.1 (before going I was 248.6 or maybe 248.1 or 2) with a BMI of 43.2. My visceral fat was at a 16. Visceral fat is what you can’t see and can be harmful. Click on the link to learn more about visceral fat. Visceral fat.
With my having hypothyroidism, weight loss/fat can be hard. However, once I started losing weight through dieting and exercising, + taking my medication reguarly, I (keyword I) couldnt use having a thyroid issue as an excuse. I was offered phentermine (back in 2017) and decided to take it. In doing so, along with eating right and exercising, I was losing the weight too fast and stopped taking it.
We were going on a cruise soon (in Oct) and I had just bought clothes that would have been way too small and I was beyond my return date.
I will definitely be going back to my regular gym once I’ve seen the physical therapist this week about my shoulder injury. I enjoyed having structure + it’s just a better vibe and fit for me. However, I do like the fact that now the hubs and I can workout together cause he is so not into doing HIIT.
My plan is to downgrade my membership at my gym so that we’re still able to keep the membership withPlanet Fitness. The downgrade would give me 8 workouts a month; so 2 days a week atRegymenand 3 days a week at Planet Fitness.
I love me some me; from the inside out. However, as a result of gaining weight, losing weight, gaining weight, losing weight and surgeries, I don’t like one particular part of my body. That would be my lower stomach aka panniculus.
I have lost a total of 58.2 pounds with about 10 more pounds to go which would bring my total to 68.2. My goal weight is 180 which is what me and my plastic surgery agreed upon. I know that for my height, I should weigh around 140 but I’ve been at that size and it is not for me.
If the older me could go back and talk with the younger me, I would tell myself to take better care of myself; mind, body and spirit. Self care has become of utmost importance to me now. I may be going on 52 years old, but I’m doing what I can, that’s within my control.
I strongly suggest being your own advocate to ensure you have doctors that are listening to you as well. You know your body better than anyone. So many things went unnoticed because I put too much trust in what my previous doctors would tell me when I knew something was not right. You have a right to request your medical records and the things that I would come across.
Today I reached my 50th workout at my gym. I received a t-shirt to celebrate that milestone.
When I first started doing HIIT, I bout died. I still feel that way when I go workout and in my head, I’m saying all sorts of cuss words. LOL! But once the workout is over, I’m pretty proud of myself and happy that I got it done. I never would have thought I’d be someone that enjoyed going to the gym to workout.
I like to do my workout in the mornings which is the 6:15 a.m. class during the week. I’m up usually around 5:30 so I give myself enough time to brush my teeth, get dressed, feed the cat and eat a light snack. Also, this gives me enough time to get to the gym so I can stretch and get a warm-up in to get my heart rate slightly up.